Last night (Saturday) was a rare one for me. Two of my guys are out of town on a college tour/boy's weekend and the third had a party. After I dropped him off for the party, I decided to run some errands at night. This is something I never do but I'm in search of comfortable, chic shoes (I have a bad foot and my orthopedist suggested sensible shoes until it heals)
Anyway, I ran around to some stores during the dark on my impossible mission. There are no comfortable, chic shoes out there. At least not in my price range.
Driving around at night seemed very lonely to me. I started to think about what my life would be like if my husband and boys no longer lived with me. I became sad. I was being ridiculous. I run errands almost every day during daylight hours by myself and I am not lonely. Why did driving around at night freak me out so much?
I finally threw in the towel and figured I would go home and online to search for the loch ness monster (a comfortable, chic shoe). Once I got home, my loneliness instantly went away. Before I knew it , it was time to go pick up my son from the party. Things were completely back to normal.
I guess my mind was playing tricks on me. Isn't it horrible when that happens?
I have a mark on my foot and I begin to think it is terminal melanoma (it is a dry skin patch). I give up diet coke and then all I can think about is Diet Soda (I am on week three!)
Why does one's mind do this? When I was pregnant with my first son, I started to worry like a crazy person. I kept worrying about everything from the serious things like, "Will he be healthy?" to silly things like "Will he be ugly?" (He was healthy and absolutely gorgeous). I decided that I would worry about him for the rest of my life so I decided then and there to only worry if someone like doctor told me to worry. This actually works most of the time but now that he is in the teen years, it is not as easy. Regardless, telling my mind to cut it out worked, even on my pregnant brain. Why can't it always be like this? Tell our brains to knock it off. I guess I should start meditating or something.